some weird dirty old man called my number at 3plus. asshole la. i told he was some friend of mine at first cause he keep asking me to guess. but when i ask who he was then he say 'the one in your heart lor' wtf lah. obvious that he's not my friend! i only have one fat pig in my heart and he occupied all the space liao, so who the hell are you? then he ask you sleeping liao ar then i say no then he ask where am i so obviously i'm sitting on my bed right? then i replied i'm on my bed then he say that means you sleeping liao right? then i was like wth lah. on my bed means i'm sleeping ar. basket. he pissed me off. so i decided to keep quiet while he kept yakking on the phone. incoming free what so never mind. haha. then finally he begin to realise (i think) that he called the wrong num. so he ask one last question which made me kap the damn phone. 'are you taozi?' wth. if you keep calling someone wouldnt you recognize her voice?! i said NO and he keep apologizing then i hung up in case he started to talk to me like those pervert guys who flip through the yellow pages and call up any number they see and while a girl answer the phone then they'll try talking to the girl to MAKE FRIEND. wth cant you go through the natural way of making friends? BAH!

i wanted to blog yesterday. but decided to format my laptop instead. haha.

had a very merry merry merry merry christmas!! went to his house on 24th. brought my stuffs along. reached his house. bathed, dried and curled my hair. but the curls didnt stay so i was pretty much irritated by that. put wax and hair spray. in the end it still didnt stay. haha. so indtead of curly, it became wavy. lol. but that what happens when you dont have patience making your hair.

changed and went out. went to marina square. but obviously we were too late so we went to eplanade. then to clarke quay. on the way there, we were disgussing on whether to wear the xmas hat not. then he went to buy sundae for his beloved christopher. haha. *tada* his colleague gave him 2 xmas hat. LOL. so i being a NICE gf, i forced asked him to put it on and we look like some retards lah. but fun. hehe. we saw qinghui outside some place. haha.

after that we went to dhoby ghaut and we saw xxx. how suay can one be lah. take same train then in the same cabin. duhh. but whatever. i'm still having fun. haha. went to somerset and finally orchard. haha. there were alot of ppl. we were thinking of not playing the spray thingy but then while walking to orchard, this bitch came and spray me. fucking bitch lah. kena my eye lor. asshole. so we bought the 10sprays in total. went to the john little there to wait for maoyuan and yixiang. we saw alot of foam fights lah.

they finally came. we went to find them. we stood right infront of them but they didnt see us. haha. idiotic lah. so tall for what. haha. so we walked around to see where we could start our war. haha. THEN some attacked us so happily we attack back. we walked to the traffic light and stationed at the phone booth near cine. then we saw this group of hongkongers. and they look at us and we look back. so bf and i discussed whether to 'recruit' them not cause our group was simply too small. in the end, they joined us. YAY~ so we started counter attacking people.

they really play till damn hiong kind lah. and they kena those coloured foam kind. those ppl use those coloured foam are asshole lah. stain my clothes. irritating. lucky we didnt wear those branded kinda clothes if not sure cry ah. haha. then at one point my bf almost fell cause the floor was too slippery. and he tried to balanced and the whole scene was superly funny. HAHA. and you can see how cunning some ppl are. at first say peace then in the end attack from behind. or those who just dont understand eng 'dont spray when you're crossing the roads'. and some banglas who just chooses to attack girls. asshole lah. and aint i lucky. we saw the bitch who attacked me. and yay! revenge. wahaha. serve you right. you dont have the right to keep attacking people who look abit better than you! tsk tsk.

after the long foam fights, we settled at cine. wash up abit before going to have a sit at the food court. saw chuntat. shocked lah. haha. talk awhile while maoyuan went to fetch alvina there. then we went to starbucks and chatted. headed home at around 3plus. i went to his home. bathed and ate cup noodles. then we chatted awhile before sleeping.



the next day they hid me cause his mom didnt know i was at his house yet. hahah. after she left for work, we went to buy some groceries with his sis. bought the necessary stuffs and went back. fried the chicken and stuff, ate and we went to his room to play '5, 10, 15'. the one who lose have to drink a mouthful of breezer. and i lost so many times lah. we bought 2bottles. and the amount i drank is like 1.5 bottle lah. duhh. went to sleep again after drinking. by the time it was 8 plus. they ordered pizza. not really nice though cause it was cold by the time we ate it. haha.



his mom came home and started laughing hysterically lah. cause his bro brought a kitten home. then we were fixing the com and doing some stuffs and she decided to drag me out for a talk. in the middle of the night. hello? dont you need to sleep? but due to basic courtesy i sorta entertain her though i was really sleepy. and finally, at 1 am, she ended her talk. and i'm freed from my sufferings.



woke up in the afternoon. then the mom ask me look after the soup. obviously it will slip off my mind la. whatever. dont find me because you want a maid lah. duhh. she left. and we played the sims. he left after awhile cause his siblings were crowding around me. haha. i love the fifth one. =) and his sis just have to piss me off when i'm playing. wth lah. it's so irritating lor. when someone say such unpleasant stuffs. i felt like slapping her lah. i'll hang her up to keep her mouth shut if i could. hahaha.



aites, went home at night. i spend more than 48hours with my fat pig. it just feels so nice. but it would be better if we had our own homes. then there'd not be anyone to come irritate me. but i dont mind bringing the 5th one along. hehe. this is a very long entry. now it's 0310. omg. i messed up my body clock. argh!!



oh ya, i suffered some bruises from the foam fight. haha. i'm getting more and more forgetful. forgive me if i forgot about you. haha.

was reading through all my previous entries. every different entry represents all of my mood at that particular time. hmmm. what should i say? i've changed in my blogging style. in the past it was all about what have happen at a particular time, which friends have i met etc.

now? i've litterally cut short on all m entries cause i'm really lazy to blog. last time i still find the joy of reminising all the things that had happened. but now things just changed. i cant remember what i did a few moments ago. whe i leave the house, after taking the lift down, i'd start thinking if i had lock the doors. then i'd hurry back to check.

things just had to change. those that were around me before left gradually.

haiz. things just sucks when you grow older. dont they?

watched blogtv. kids these days. cant understand. they actually post the photos of them kissing on their blog? haha. how absurb. kissing(on the lips) etc is such an intimate act. you're just 15. and you go to the extend of posting all our pictures out? so emo-ish. if you're married then fine. you two will look very sweet. but your main motive is? show off to everyone that you're a bf? so when you grow older are you just gonna strip and have sex on the streets?

BAH!

i'm worried for my bf now. but i've planned what to do to my hair on xmas eve!! hehes. look forward to the photos if i'm taking any~ =)

i've sucha cute bf. i'm glad that i knew him before many other girls. =D

he came and met to just to acc me to have dinner. how nice. heheh. aint you jealous? wahaha.

anyway forgot to blog bout this. our hard work. by sly, ky and me at sakae sushi. haha. i started it first. tsk tsk. so let me introduce you to MR CORSPE.

*TADA*

and here comes MRS CORPSE~

aint we creative? tsk tsk. and by the way, that's a wasabi head. HAHA. =P

slowly getting over flip. but still i feel that there's something missing. haiz.

the rain seems never ending. it was raining since yesterday. met up with ky and ziqi. ate at sakae. wanted to sing but simply dont have the mood.

walked around and got stuck at heeren cause the rain was simply too big. met my bf. went home first to take some stuffs and feed the other pigs. mochi hates being touched in the tummy. not like fei or flip. haha so cute. bf complained to me like a little boy. super cute can? haha. love him.

went to sleep over at his house. i was so drained. but his house was so noisy went his mom came home. just when i fell asleep, his phone just have to ring. irritating. bleh!

but ya, i feel better with him around although he never knows how i feel a 100%. thanks darling. and you better dont go seduce your supervisor! haha. BLEH!

now i know how weak i am exactly. a death is just enough to kill me. but thanks darling, i wouldnt know how i'd survive without you.

i feel so drained. thanks for the concern from all of you. i guess i'm alright for now.

no one knows how much flip meant to me. NO ONE! so stop pretending that you know anything cause you simply dont! you just dont know how much it hurts. okay maybe you know, but the way you feel and how i feel is completely different!!!!

flip's gone. gone forever. i miss him. i'm sorry flip. now my heart hurts like hell. i dont know what to do. we went him for cremation. getting his death cert in a few days time. i still cant get over him. this feeling suck completely. crying like shit hoping he will come back. maybe things wouldnt be in this way had i came home earlier yest to see him. but i didnt. i came home and went straight to my room. didnt realise the time passed. had i return home straight after school then things wouldnt be like that. had i not be so stubborn to wait till everyone's leaving then i left then things wouldnt be like that. had i not feel so empty then maybe things wouldnt turn out this way. why do things have to happen like this? seeing him get weaker and weaker as time went by. gradually not able to stand properly on his feet. i'm so helpless. tried massaging and stuffs for him but he didnt get any better. i feel so guilty. so sad. so depress. so helpless. i rather take over his place. seriously. why do i have to keep see those around gradually leaving me? WHY! what did i do to offend you that you have to take my love ones away from me?! he only a rabbit. why do you want to let him suffer? he still so young. he's only 1yr 3 mth and 4 days old! you took away my mom, then rips and now flip. so what do you want now. who are you taking away next?

i miss flip so much. missed putting that cushion on him. missed bathing him. missed playing with him. missed bringing him out to walk. missed massaging for him. missed carrying him. missed chasing him around. missed everything about him.

we sent him for cremation. hopes he'll live better in another world. flip, i love you. forgive me, i'm sorry. sorry i cant bring you up to an older age. sorry that you cant enjoy with fei they all anymore. sorry for everything.

it's so pain inside.

are you dumb or dumb? ask you go home early to rest from what time say going home yet till now you're still not home yet? if you're not working tomorrow then jolly well enjoy all you want lah. i wouldn't even bother. but the fact is you're working tomorrow. and what time are you working till? 2-4am? wtf. you think you're god ar? so what if your mind can take it? have you thought whether you body can take it not? how long already? how many times have you complained that your leg pain and back pain? do you even know how much my heart hurts not? then what if one day you cant take it anymore and you collapse? so you rather fall sick than to keep yourself healthy?





ahh whatever. flip's sick so i cant be bothered with you now. do whatever you want. and when you fall sick, dont come telling you how miserable you are.

i just want a hug now. ya now. now now NOW!

i feel so sad. suddenly today i felt life so boring like never before. but i dont have the courage to put a stop to change it. on the train, i was hoping that it will rain. but it didnt. so fuckit.

when your eyes hurt.
when tears dont flow anymore.
you'll know what might be happening.

i'm tired of smiling like nothing had happened. it's so torturing. when you feel like crying yet you have to put on a big smile infront of others. if not they'll think that you're just trying to gain attention etc. how real is life?

i'm like living in my own world when even you dont understand me.

acc waney to rebond her hair. makes me wanna rebond again. haha. trimmed my hair today. and in the end guess what? i got a free hair cut. caused they didnt calculate in her payment then after we left then we realise. then we were too hungry so we decided to eat first. wahaha.so nice the chicken chop. *YUMMY!!

sch was boring cause we only had 2hours of real lesson. but song cause we shoot the auntie till she want cry. WAHAHA. karma lah. bleh.

met my fat pig. went home and fell asleep. dont know why i feel so exhausted. =( i chased him home thinking that i could sleep than i realise i've got use case to do. dammit lah. i miss my darling. ='(

i look forward to seeing you tomorrow. love ya. =D

my whole body ache like shit!! damn napfa lah. arghh!! irritating. make me feel so sick the rest of the day. but lucky i've someone called raymond lim. without you i dont have any idea how i could go home though i can jolly well take the cab. but still i cant walk properly.

kissed goodbye. you're so cute.

after at taste of thailand. so nice lor. but i'm hungry again!! ahh. OMG. haha. fun but a bone got stuck in between my teeth then everything came down. haha.

then we saw a guai bei bei. damn omg lor. keep looking and looking. idiot lah. tiko! haha.

had some girls talk. so funny lah.

everytime i see you
i cant get angry
everytime i see you
i wouldnt be sad

everytime i see you

i wanna hug you
everytime i see you
i wanna kiss you
everytime i see you
i'm happy again
everytime i see you
i melt once more
everytime i see you
i fall in love another time


since my body is aching like hell, i should be good and stay at home cause i cant walk properly as well. haha. shall go sleep soon. love everyone today. especially him. =D

i'm sorry but i love you my dearest darling.

two suicides recently in the north area. so who will be next? one at admiralty, one at yishun. fucking shit. i feel so suay, so crap, so tired, so drained, so mixed up, so fuck up, so whatever-you-can-think-of recently. ='(

so hard to say i dont love you :

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

oh my god. so sad lah that show. almost cried. super sad. so poor thing lah. when dong yong falls in love with xiao qi. aiya, watch yourself lah. it's a nice show. though i didnt manage to catch all of the episode. haha. do you love me?

today super tiring lah. rushed to sch. cs walk so fast leaving XM and me behind. lucky dr tan got mark our attendance. if not we sure leave one lor. haha.

aites i'm too lazy to block. so feel like getting mc for tomorrow. but then, there's xml ica and NAPFA!! my god lah. i'm so gonna fail lor. never even train. aites, time to go. cause i'm lazy to blog.

gone for now. congrats ziqi!! =D